I don't really know how other people see me. I hope they see a mildly confident friendly person who is nice to have a laugh with. Though lately I have been going through some tough times myself. I am feeling fear, something I'm really not used to. The thing that's frightening me... the future.
It scares the shit out of me. It seems sad to me that my biggest fear is that of my future. I am currently finishing up my third semester at KCC with one more to take in the spring. That part I am fine with, I'm comfortable and generally confident that I can handle it. Then, there is something else. Going to Western. This excites me and terrifies me to no end. Those classes will define whether or not I am able to become a psychologist like I want to.
Yet not even that scares me the most. What is scarring me the most right now is the fact that I have to move to Kalamazoo, yet I don't know where I'm going to live. I don't want to live in the dorms because they are incredibly expensive, but my other options are hardly existent. The person I was hoping to get and apartment with has decided that he wants commute for as long as possible to try and save money.
I don't really know what else to say at this point, besides I feel like this fear will never go away, and that it is slowly eating me alive. I need a little help from my friends...
The Guru
- Kyle
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3 comments:
Kyle,
I know exactly how you feel. I moved up to GVSU feeling the same way, and am going to give you some advice I've learned so that you don't have to go through as much shit as I have,
First off, Western is a great school, so you should be excited about getting in and going. I'm sure you've got a lot of classes to take, but the best thing you can do for yourself is to take as few classes as you can get away with, while staying a full time student. This is really the most important thing, because it's going to be a lot different from KCC. Not necessarily harder, but different, and you'll need to just get used to things. This was my biggest mistake at GVSU.
Also, there's a lot of choices with living in Kzoo. I'm moving in here with Amber and her two roommates, so I can't really be a lot of help as far as being a roommate, but there's a lot of cheap places to live around campus I've heard. I'd be willing to do some searching with you, and we can find you a cheap place with a cool roomie.
And you've got a lot of friends in Kzoo already, and there's more on the way. Brian and Jon live here as you know, Phill's moving up, and so is Matt Shook. M-Town and Katie reside in the zoo. Amber and I are going to be here, and we're a stone's throw away from Campus. Our roommates Ben and Cindle are like, the nicest people you could ever meet, and I know Kurt has talked about moving up here after school, so you wont be alone.
And I know money can be tight, so If you can get through a month or two without working, that could be good. Or if you know you'll need the money, you could work for a couple months, then once the semester gets heavy you can stop then. That would really help you focus on school, at least for a semester. I know that's hard to do, not work, since you need money to live and eat and all that stuff, believe me I really know how hard it is.
So just take things at your own pace. You can always move up here and take just one or two classes until the winter semester. Just don't feel bad about taking your time with school. I know that I'm going to be at it for a while, because I cant handle a full school load and working at the same time, so there's nothing to worry about there.
You're an amazing person; you're funny, you're incredibly smart, talented, and, lets be honest, people love you. So I know how you feel, and you can always come up to Kzoo or GVSU and chill with me (depending on where I'm sleeping that night, lol).
Just some stuff to think about, I know it's scary, but you can get through it.
Also, I love you bro.
Thanks man, I appreciate it mucho!!
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